So far I'm getting absolutely nothing done today. Nothing helpful anyway. I've spent hours and hours on Facebook, I looked at Consumer Reports reviews on espresso machines, and I did a bit of laundry. Basically, I'm doing everything except what I need to be doing, which is studying.
Monday is my first day of my pediatric clinical rotation. I'm super excited, but I have extremely limited knowledge of children. Especially sick children.
This past Wednesday I went to St. Francis for orientation for my OB rotation. The last time I was there was exactly a year before (to the date), when I was diagnosed with 'fetal demise' via ultrasound. I'm determined to replace the bad memories with new ones.
Essentially, it's been a week of reflection. It's amazing to me that it's been a year. In ways, it feels much more recent, and in other ways, it seems as if it was a lifetime ago. My personal experience has taught me what NOT to do as a student nurse. I didn't receive much support from my doctor. At the time, I assumed that was just the way it worked. I was inexperienced and naive and figured it was the same everywhere for everyone. In fact, it was school that taught me otherwise. Needless to say, I immediately switched doctors. And now I know better. And because of it, I will be better prepared to care for my patients. Maybe well-intentioned friends who said "everything happens for a reason" were right....in a way.
Anyway, I suppose that's enough on that TMI topic. Next time, I promise something a bit more upbeat!
Regrettably, as people continue in their medical careers, they sometimes lose their humanity. I, too, am bound and determined not to let that happen to me.
ReplyDeleteI can't see you as a cold, unfeeling, automaton. You're going to be a wonderfully empathetic nurse. :-)